What I know for sure...My Oprah moment...

What I know for sure..

I love chocolate,

The smell of gasoline, liquid paper, and fresh cut grass.

I love warm clothes out of the dryer,

The sun on my face,

And a deep uncontrollable belly laugh..

What I know for sure..

I love the sound of crickets,

the smell of a baby's neck,

Hot baths,

freshly painted toes (with no bed sheet marks)

Roller coasters,

Musicals

And a good yawn..

What I know for sure,

Is without fail, my little dog will love me and lick my feet because she knows when i need it most.

Unconditional love even when I step on her paw by accident.

What I know for sure,

Is that friends will fall away,

become acquaintances...

Perhaps we'll pass on the street like strangers,

And the very few who remain,

Will love me at my most high,

They'll make me tea,

Wipe my tears,

Laugh with me,

Understand jokes just between us,

Tell me everything will be ok,

even if they secretly worry it won't.

What I know for sure,

Is there will always be people in the world who will try and intimidate you,

Hurt you,

Be disloyal to you,

And we won't always see past the reality of where it all stems,

We'll get hurt, not realizing,

That the Bully has been bullied, the one who hurts, is hurt

The one who is disloyal, probably doesn't have someone to lean on.

Send them love...but don't allow them in your space.

What I know for sure,

Is that I have many great ideas and thoughts,

But not all of them are what I was destined to do.

So I tuck some of them away,

But put the ones that mean the most to me on the top of my list.

What I know for sure,

I hate the gym,

Stairwells get me,

And an excercise routine is a chore,

But the feeling I get from doing it,

Is gratifying and a small win each time I do.

What I know for sure..

I have a temper,

I say things without thinking,

I sometimes don't speak up enough.

I sometimes put myself second,

I've loved the wrong men,

And haven't loved the right ones..

But each time,

I get closer,

Better.

Nearer to the man I NEED, not WANT.

What I know for sure,

I draw closer to family,

I have become my mother,

I appreciate time with them like never before.

But most of all,

What I know for sure,

Is that I am learning, growing, freeing myself from old habits, and trying to form new ones.

I'm dreaming, fighting for what I believe in, loving, appreciating and expressing more.

Eliminating no from my vocabulary, asking for what I need. Giving breath to what matters most..

And through it all,

I'm ok with me.

Just the way I am.