I'm a writer..

I'm a writer.

That's what I've been telling myself and thankfully there is some proof of it on the web and in a local magazine every three months.

I'm a writer.

But the fact of the matter is, lately, I've chosen to take the title without doing the work.

I'm too busy, life is hectic, I just don't have time..

I just don't have time for one of the things that brings me pure joy.

I'm a writer.

I sometimes wonder if I'm the only one that doesn't make as much time as they should to do what God has put me here to do.

The other day, one of my friends, who just so happens to be doing her writing, put a quote on her wall. It affected me so greatly that I actually wanted to ignore it, but I couldn't. Couldn't ignore the blatant message that I needed to hear.

And that quote said

"When I stand before God, at the end of my life, I would hope I could say I don't have a single talent left. I used everything you gave me!" ...thanks for that trey.

I tried to shove it off, pretend it didn't bother me.

But when people ask..

I tell them.

I'm a writer.

So I ask you..

What is it that you are NOT doing in your life that brings you pure joy?

Are you dancing like you should be? Singing? Baking? Knitting?

What is it in your life that you have decided is no longer essential because it's "not realistic" or can't pay your cable bill. And the second question is, what are you replacing it with? Empty fillers? A job that pays the bills but doesn't fill your soul with satisfaction?

I'm afraid, I let life get the better of me. Let excuses take over and allowed myself to become the people I sighed at as they made their way along the sidewalk, scurrying along going nowhere more important than what they really should be doing...their passion.

So,

I'm a writer.

And it's necessary for me to do the one thing that allows me to drift away. The one thing that doesn't put limits on the what I believe. Allows me to tell stories the way I want them to. I am free to make my forever afters, play by my rules. It's the one place where I can be whoever I choose to be, meet whoever I want to meet, dream whatever dreams I choose to dream.

Because,

I am a writer.

And it's time I start writing.